It's been 2.5 weeks since I regained my head. Meaning, 2.5 weeks 100% episode free. This has not been my experience for years and it's one I've been protecting, hence no blog posts. There are parts of my mind that worry if I enter into my mental health parts of life it could reignite all … Continue reading I have my head
Chris Chatterton These were my words as I entered my psychologist's office, I think I've only said them ten times max to my memory. Some issues came to light from the brute force anxiety attack I had after my session last Friday, and more mild one the week before. I realized how anxious I've been … Continue reading We Need To Talk
Sometimes looking back brings the pain. As I live it now, my life is one of conscious and continuous distraction. If my mind is off center, you'll find me always doing something to distract the mind. If no activities are available, or even when I'm doing them, there is a neverending stream of audiobooks, Netflix … Continue reading Reminded, Remembered
I was at the Taiyaki stand, ready for my weekly custard fish, plus bonus fish! Hannah's gone for the weekend with her grandparents! It's always been the cheat weekend over the last two years of our super diet, lifestyle change, but the excitement is gone. It's not special, I will have no extra pleasure in … Continue reading The Cheat Days are Missing!
Brownies MUST be cooled all the way or their tops may pop off, well, I took them off. Rapid Cycling has my back! Yep, I was definitely depressed earlier in the week, but it's gone! I am now an electrified doll on cocaine. A blazing sign that says it's time to bake with the anticipation … Continue reading Baking, Geeking Out, Vibrating
Not the thing I thought I'd say to my therapist. A few sessions ago he mentioned the term 'reparenting,' and gave some advice, to judge myself as I would do with Hannah. The curious creature I am, I looked it up. At its most basic, reparenting involves the therapist taking on the role of parent. … Continue reading You’re Not My Daddy, I’ve Got One Thanks
"Accepting a bipolar diagnosis fully is “almost like joining the priesthood,” says Sagar V. Parikh, MD, deputy psychiatrist-in-chief at the University Health Network in Toronto and professor of psychiatry at the University of Toronto. “The commitment to treatment is a major one that involves going to the doctor regularly and paying a lot of effort … Continue reading My Little Beastie